Door is ajar

I just feel so disconnected today. Probably because I really need to clean and am magnificently unmotivated. But it's more than that. Talked to my best friend on the phone - the one person who has an unqualified talent to bring me out of a funk - and just couldn't keep my head in the conversation. What is going on with my brain lately?
It's not just today. I just feel like I can't focus, and it's been like this for months now. Since the end of the semester - though I wasn't particularly focused that last few weeks. But now, I just can't focus on anything, except for the totally unrealistic fantasy world inside the books I've been reading, which is neither healthy nor helpful.

I suppose watching The Hours isn't really helping, but I've never seen it and it was there, so I picked it up, and it has to go back to the library soon, so I was going to just watch it, but it's like it's sapping out what little energy and motivation I had to begin with.
Does Heathcliff die at the end of Wuthering Heights?
I watched it last night and that was kind of unclear. Then of course I called my mom, and she doesn't know. Of course, I shouldn't really have expected her to. She's more the "I know everything that happens in every romance novel ever written, and in most of the movies where explosives play a part, but expect me to know anything about Classic literature and I'll give you a blank stare" type. Which probably shouldn't bother me, since I haven't read Wuthering Heights, either. But lately along with the disconnectedness has come a moodiness that blames people for things they can't really help.

But now I need to go clean my kitchen so I can make chili and cake. Now that the movie's turned off, maybe I can accomplish something before I turn it back on.