I got an email today

From John of all people. Okay, so I emailed him yesterday with one of those, "is that really you or has someone else stumbled upon your email address" emails.
I miss him more than you could ever imagine, which is crazy because I've hardly seen him in umm seven years? How bizarre a thought is that.
That's a third of my life.
I used to talk to him about everything, and I could talk to him about anything.
I miss that. I miss having someone I can vent to about whatever and he won't try to make me feel better (well, eventually, but he'd let me vent for a while) and he wouldn't get all "well my problems are WAY worse than yours" and he'd listen and then I'd realize that I'd been bitching for a while so I'd shut up and let him talk and he gave genuinely good advice.
Which is probably why I convinced myself that I was in love with him. Well, that and because I was fifteen. And he is adorable and funny and smart.
And even from the three sentence email he sent me he sounds happy, which makes me happy.
Okay, well, I'm heading to Menominee for a fitting for the next couple days. I can't wait to try on my dress again. It's so beautiful it's hard to believe that I didn't like the idea of it at first. Separates just aren't really my thing, but this dress is gorgeous and I can't wait to wear it for the wedding.